Yesterday I made mistake. I was regret but then felt okay after a deep sleep. But I tried not to ignore it, I think about it more this morning. There are 3 mistakes and lessons :
1. I have tried so hard to fit in a "community". I need to learn to be okay with not being to fit in, to be alone but unique self. I need to learn to be patient and wait for a "community" that fits me.
2. I set many goals in life, which is good but distracted. I forget to see what I have in my hand, and try so hard to reach something that is out there. I will then learn to focus on what I have in hands, treasure it and makes it blossomed.
3. I have so many expectations. I expect that the giving act will have returns. I expect that when I smile, there will be a smile back. But then, all expectations just lead to the disruption of such good action. I rather stop expecting, and just focus on my act.